Saw “Saw 4”

Movie Night

Today was holiday of our department.
Somehow, only our department and workers at factories of out company had an extra day-off today.
I woke up and went to see an obstetrician and gynecologist.
Gynecologist is somewhere I never been able to feel comfortable to go in.
My first experience to go in to gynecologist was when I lived in the US.
I remembered that Dan, who was my boyfriend’s roommate at that time, came with me.
I remember that I felt what an open-minded Americans are.
Today, I went there of course by myself because I had some worries.
I got a test and need to wait till this Saturday, will see…
After that, I stopped by at my parent’s house to see my dog.
Since my boss called me to my cell to check if I was at office when I went to the hospital, I decided to go to my office to do some work, ALTHOUGH it was HOLIDAY.
I got frustrated because my office printer was broken.
But I worked without my printer, just wrote some e-mails to the US.
I hope I can hear back from them by tomorrow morning…
Writing lots of business letters is such a hard work for me.

Anyway, after I finished working, it was 7:30PM.
I went to get Shiatsu, one-hour massage.
It’s been a while since the last time I was there.
It felt soooo good, and I felt I deserved it!!

At 10PM, Takk came to my apt to see “Saw4”.
I had never liked horror film, but he insisted to watch when Saw 1 came out.
Since then, I got crazy about the movie, but I had never been able to watch it by myself.
Saw4 was gross.
Also I could not get the story this time.
Very complicated.
After the film, Takk explained for a while, but I still don't get it.
Now I am not sure if I wanna see Saw5 if it would come out…
I was excited on movie night tonight, but it was just okay.

Got My Partner

Relaxing Sunday

This is me brushing my teeth, looks like that I am not thinking anything.
Although I look like this, I have so much concerned lately.
My day was started with such a bad mood today.
Lately, I am not confident.
I feel that I am not good enough to work for my father.
I am so afraid to make him disappointed.
The more I feel that way, the worse I do on my project…
Now I work for my father, but I know this is not what I want for good.
At the same time, I am not confident to be independent.
Sometimes, I think too much about what I am doing now, and get freaked out.

To stop thinking too much, I decided to clean up my room.
In this evening, Iwasaki-san, she’s like my sister, visited me.
It seemed like she is struggling about her life too.
She gets a lot of pressure from her parents to get arranged married.
She tries so hard to answer her parents’ expectations.
At dinner, she said,
“My parents really want me to get married, but there is an exception. My parents told me that if Ms. Ikada wants you to take somewhere and wants to do business with you, put everything behind and follow her.”
I was so moved to hear that.
I had never seen her parents, but they trust me this much.
I might be able to do business if she comes with me, seriously.
We talked about my business plan for a long time, and decided to think about it more sometime later.
It would be so cool if my dream comes true.

Pink Dinner

Pink Kushikatsu

I went to work today too.
I think this is bad habbit that I go to work every Saturday...
After dinner I was invited to dinner.
Went to Kushikatsu place.
It was really good.
I wish I did not have to drive there.
Today was the night I needed a glass of cold beer!

Not Talkative

Friday Night

I decided to leave my office a little bit earlier than usual.
Mittaka, my childhood friend, came to my office area, so we decided to go out for dinner.
He asked me about my future dream at dinner, and I told him about my dream job.
He was surprised how much I talk like a man.
Maybe I talked about working too seriously.
Sometimes I get too serious, and it is my strong point and also my weak point.
He said he would support whatever I wanna do, and cheered me that what I am dreaming about now is not something stupid.
I felt a little relieved.
I thought I talked most of the time at dinner, but he was worried about me since I was not talkative as usual.
I wonder how much I always talk…

Both of us were tired, but decided to go to Karaoke only because we thought we should not ruin Friday night.
The picture above is what I got at Karaoke place.
I sang really badly tonight…
Soooo tired, I can’t stop coughing and feel fever now.
It is nice to hang out with my friend after work, but getting harder and harder.
Am I getting too old for parties?? Noooooo!!!

Tough Decision

Decision I made
Today was a hard day.
Everyone told me that I look hella tired.
I should not be looked like that…
What’s wrong with me!?!?

smoke salmon and sour cream Pizza

Two of my assistants cried in front of me.
I talk with my assistants one by one this week.
One is that I am struggling how to make them be independent.
Well, I can’t say too much, because I am not completed independent yet.
As I concerned a lot lately, I am not good enough…
Anyway, one girl cries almost everyday, so I talked with her in person.
She has someone who she hates so much at work.
She started crying when I just mentioned his name.
She can’t even stand hearing his name.
I have never hated someone that much.

The other girl who cried was my favorite assistant because she was the one who did Internet business with me for 2 years.
She used to be my student when she was junior high and high school student.
She had never cried at work before.
So when she cried, I almost cried.
She was resigned from a project.
I made the decision, but it was such a hard decision to make.
Living in a business world is tough.
If you can’t get a result, you would not get the position.
I wanted her to stay for the project, but could not…
The hardest job I do is being strict to my assistants who I love so much.

Organic Eggplanet Peperoncino

I took her for dinner tonight.
We went to a nice Italian restaurant.
We had a good chat.
Life is hard.

Sigh Sigh Sigh…

Straggling

I can’t stop sighing.
Someone says, “Whenever you sigh, you will lose your happiness”.
Whatever.
I just can’t help it.

My boss took me for dinner tonight.
Drunk much from Monday.
I bet it would be hard to get up tomorrow…
Damn it!!

We went to bar.
I had my favorite cocktail, Amaretto Ginger.

Tomorrow should be a good day.

Slow Sunday

Happy Mother’s Day

Today was my first day off since I came back to Japan from the US.
I had no power to do anything.
I was going to go to see my friend’s baby who just was born on May 6th.
However, I needed to sleep in so decided not to go, but some next time.
I am excited to see him, though.
I know, I am a bad friend…
My day has started from noon today.
I did laundry and played with my PC and went to a flower shop to get flower for my mom.
Yes, today was Mother’s day.

Although today was my mother’s day, I asked my mom to cook my favorite dinner.
It was really good as usual.
I gave her a good massage to show my appreciation to her.
She was happy to receive roses, but she was not happy that my dad did not give her compliments about my mom’s dinner tonight.
It was my bad since I kept talking about my work to my dad whole time at dinner.
I am stressed out about my work, because I am in hurry to get a good result of all my projects.
I need good advises!!
Besides talking with my dad about work, I played with my little dog, Darch.


Should go to bed for tomorrow.
I can’t miss morning meeting, and I will have lots of stuff to do tomorrow!