IN NATURE

Summer in Nagano

I was at a cabin in Nagano during this weekend.
It has been a year since the last time I was here.
Nothing has been changed here.
It is so nice to be back here, back to nature.
It is nothing here, very quiet, cool weather, lots of green, and fresh air.
The only thing I can hear is the sound of water from the river close here.
I even feel guilty to open my computer in this situation.
What I do here is cook breakfast, read a book, take a nap and drink till late at night.
Very calm, and lots of time to think many things.

This cabin has been here for a long time.
My grandpa bought this property and my family came here quite often when I was little.
When I was a college student, my friends and I came up her for camp and skiing.
Now I rarely come up here, but there are lots of memories here.
It is so nice to have this kind of place.
The picture on the wall was my grandpa’s favorite artist’s.
There are two pictures in this cabin and each girl in the picture looks like my sister and I.
Everyone who has come up here asks us if they are us.
The girl in the picture on above looks like my sister when she was young.

I wonder when would be the next time I could come up here.
Now I want to go as many places in Japan as I can.
I would not waste my holidays even though I usually am tired on weekends from work.

TURNING POINT

How To Live My Life

To have this smoke from this big pot to the part of me which I want to change helps me, it says.
Well, where should I change?

I have not written this blog for a while.
Actually while I was not written this blog, my life has been changed dramatically.
Life is so interesting because it has never the same.
Of course everyday is different, but sometime, you see totally unexpected thing happen on one day of your life.
Unexpected thing sometime makes me realize something.
For me, I finally could find a clear vision of my life.
I had been not sure what I should do in my future.
I tend to choose the easy way to go.
On the other hand, I always wanted to answer all the expectation to me from somebody.
I have cared how other people see me too much.
I realize that the most important thing is to love myself not trying to be love by somebody.

This is a picture of me, no make up on…
I don’t usually like to be taken pictures when I don’t have make-up.
However, it was not too bad to keep this kind of picture as a memory.
Actually, I made a big big decision lately.
I am still not sure if I choose the right way to go.
I talked with lots of people, and they say many different things.
Nobody knows what is right and what is wrong.
So I just need to believe what I have chosen.
People would think that I am crazy or stupid, but I am sure that I would be very happy.
I hope the next stage of my life will be a great one.
I am moving on!