Forgot How To Cry

Wanna Cry

I woke up early to do household this morning,
And at 10 o’clock, my student came to my apt and taught him English for 2 hours.
Nowadays, I don’t speak much English, so teaching him is a good opportunity for me to speak English.
Poor my student…
After teaching him, I headed to my office by my car.
Now I got a parking spot at my apt, and I am now allowed to drive to my office, so it is easier for me to go to office.
Anyway, I had to go to office because I was not ready for a convention from next Monday.
Lately I go to every holidays.
Although I go to work on weekends, my work has never got done…

I had an appointment for hair salon today at 5:45.
My hair got messed up, so before the convention, I wanted to get my hair cut done.
However, I could not finish my work on time, and I was driving back really fast to get there on time.
I was late.
When I was driving, I wanted to cry,
Because I felt miserable when I think how many times I have sacrificed my private life for my work lately.
Also I was sad to think about a guy who now hates me.
I was thinking how I can get along with him while I was driving.
I have gotten along well with all workers, but since I moved to other department, I have had someone who became hating me.
He does not like a crazy girl who came to a different island (department) because we have a different way to achieve our project.

When I was thinking lots of things, I was about to cry, but couldn’t.
I have not cried for a while recently.
I used to dry a lot about many things, but it seems like now I forgot how to cry.
Am I too tired? Too dry? Or Am I getting strong??

Got A Hair Cut

Short Hair

I went to work today on Saturday.
Had so many things to do at work and I got so many meetings today.
I got in fight, sort of, with my boss about the project which I am heavily in duty of.
He told me that I am not as smart as my co-worker, which made me piss off!!
My co-worker graduated from a colllege which is really famous in Japan.
Obviously my college is not as famous as the one he went, but still my boss can't judge me like that.
Educational background is a big thing in Japan, although I graduated from school 7 years ago...
However, I get my power when my boss gives me a hard time.
I would not cry and lose because of his words.
I will let him know that his judgment was not right eventually in near future.
So I havr to work harder...

I went to hair salon after work.
Since I had to work till late at night, I asked my ex boyfriend to open the salon till late at night for me.
He had cut my hair for about ten years, but he said he never cut my hair this short.
It is a big change for me.
The reason why I got hair cut short is that I wanted to do something unusual.
My hair will be long soon, so I thought I should enjoy many kinds of hair style when I am young.
I hope I look better with this short hair.
not only get a hair cut, but I got "head spa" done.
It felt really really good, and I could relax.
I think I am lucky that I have many kinds of ways to make me be away from my stress.